forgive me?

im

so

sorry

that I’ve left you

in that dark little hole

to fall into my own

and

im

so

sorry

that all the see-through words

i showered you with

weren’t good enough

and

im

so

sorry

that our fingertips dont

reach each other anymore

these ditches are stupid

and

im

so

sorry

that you were drowning

and when i jumped in to save you

i realized i couldn’t swim

and then we both couldn’t breathe

and the world was black and white

and it

was

all

my fault.

 

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ihopeitwasyou

it was you, wasn’t it

who slipped me that box of

candy hearts with the cheesy words

imprinted upon them

and the scrap of notebook paper

taped to the cardboard

that read ” – your secret admirer ‘

in scrawled handwriting

except you spelled “admirer” wrong

because you were only seven?

 

was it you who sat beside me

when i was crying behind the

dumpsters at school

because i had been told one too many times

that i wasn’t good enough

– mostly by myself –

you put your arm around me

and i couldn’t really see your face

through my tears but

i was happy to just have someone there

who either didn’t care

or did.

 

it was you all along,

wasn’t it?

 

i’m sorry you can’t

whisper the same for

me.

universal

it’s midnight,

and the sky is alive above me.

stars dance across

their pitch black stage

clothed in gowns of

flickering gold and silver.

the world is almost silent

nothing exists but me

and the soft rustling of the wind.

i watch as a star falls

slowly stretching across the world

like a lost hope

a forgotten dream.

it’s midnight,

yet the sky lives on.

2am

oh, look, it’s two a.m

time seems to take on a different sort of matter

when your mind is alive

and glowing with the neurons of life

no – time seems to become

nothing at all

maybe it already is

or maybe it is just two a.m.